So… I haven’t written anything on this blog for an incredibly long time…
And the truth is, I haven’t written ANYTHING for an
incredibly long time. The last time I put pen to paper was in March and it is
so hard to get back into a rhythm/pattern/habit after such a long break.
I had been doing relatively well before now. I had some ‘dry
spells’ of writing where I had only managed to write for a couple of hours at
the weekend (if that) but, overall, I was trying my best to make time for
something that I know I ultimately really want to do.
Then, all of a sudden, it all went wrong and downhill from
there!
I started writing in February, just before the first
lockdown. Writing in the first lockdown was really easy. I mean, what else did
I have to do? And because I had gotten into some really good habits and had
really gotten into the flow of writing, it was possible to maintain it once I
returned to work. And even though… lockdown number 3, was it?...I have lost
count… was much more intense with juggling the home-learning and being in
school with key worker children, I could still somehow make the time.
We properly returned to school at the end of March. We
started the rigorous, stressful and massively time-consuming year 11 assessment
and grading process at the end of March and things have just not let up from
there. Time started to slip away, and the little I had of it at the weekends felt
better spent by catching up on missed time with friends and family. Work is
draining. Socialising is draining. Being an adult is just generally draining.
And, sadly, it has drained any ounce of energy away from my writing.
But as the summer holidays approach, I am going to try and
change my mindset. I stopped writing as a teenager and always mourned the loss
of it until I picked up that pen again at 28 years old. I am not going to let
that happen again!
